Hurry, ladies. I need as many Halloween-themed, vagina-centric jokes as you can think of. I’ve got a retrieval set for Wednesday before the sun even rises. I intend to make the most of my date.
I’m just dropping in here briefly to note that in the last three weeks…
- We took me to the ER (I’m better now, thanks).
- R. had his identity stolen.
- This week’s order of fertility drugs was as close to disastrous as you can get without having your cycle cancelled due to the numbskulls at the pharmacy (which you guys will all be able to identify, but still, I’ll refrain from mentioning them by name). They screwed up my price quote by $800, they left the Lupron off the order, and then when they agreed to send the Lupron by First Overnight so I could start on time, they gave FedEx the wrong address. (Thank you, FedEx, for somehow still getting here by 8:20 a.m.) I think I made the pharmacy lady’s ears bleed from sheer telephone-conveyed fury. They did give me a bit of a discount to make up for it… but dude. Dude.
We’re thinking of moving to Antarctica. At least the penguins don’t try to open up a credit account using your social.
I’m dropping in briefly to say that I’m taking a break from the blog.
Last week, I was very sick with a stomach thing. So far, it seems to have had the beneficial side effect of having jolted me out of the very intense depression that had had me trapped for several weeks. Honestly, I’m just grateful right now to feel well enough to eat meals.
We’ll be starting IVF attempt #1.5 shortly. In the meantime, I’ve suddenly lost my appetite for endless Googling. Frankly, I’m also tired of feeling sad or worried when I read about one more success story from somebody else, or one more statistic about women with my diagnosis. The odds are what they are; my reading about them sixteen ways won’t change anything.
That’s the short version.
I’m currently working on addressing my anxiety issues without medication. I’m practicing positive (yet realistic) visualization. I’m still nosing through blogs every few days, but I’m spending more time looking at baby zoo animals than anything related to human fertility.
I apologize for dropping off, at least for the time being. It’s what I need right now.
Good luck to everyone in the meantime.